In those days I used to write my essay...

I like a Japanese anime, "Neon Genesis Evangelion". The content is very philosophical and theorogical. I can recommend it to you.

There are some important notions for the understanding of this anime. One is "AT Field"(Absolute Terror Field). It's like barrier, giant enemies have it, and nothing can penetrate AT Field.

And human beings also have each AT-Field. They become "Primordial soup" without it, so they can no longer keep their bodies as human beings.

In NGE, AT-Field is explained as "Walls of heart", it separates one's ideantity from other egos. AT Field is Absolute Terror Field, so the terror creates the border to others. Humans can never live without terror to others.

It's impossible to understand others completely, it's doubtful if we know even all of myself. In order to understand one person, all we can is just guess through his words,attitudes, and actions.

When we know all about another, we would become the one with him. The border between I and YOU has collapsed, there's NO terror anymore.

So I wonder, to be me is in the end to fear others.